long missing, long post??

Hey, assalamualaikum :) its me again. eventho i've been neglecting this blog, been thinking of never posting anything here anymore. 😖 but, life goes his way. here i am, trying to post something. how u guys doing, seem like this girl lost in her life. im learning a lot of stuff this past few months, i bet everybody did.

have u ever felt the feelings of hating everyone? i mean, not everyone, but u just want to be alone that moment. i felt that all the time. i thought i never feels that anymore. but here i am, posting a blogpost because i want to be alone. but kinda productive-alone-hence-im-writing-konon-macam-tak-buang-masa. as u can see, my last blogpost was on oct 2016?? i guess. so i've been MIA for almost 9 months. less or more. i've been trying to involve myself more towards people. "sozializing" u can called. i've been away from my phone, since i like to stalk people pastu feel bad about myself like why lah i dont happy like them like whyyyyy. maybe because i just dont appreciate things around me very well. be specific, 'people' around me that well. its my habit to fix things. to try to figure out something new, bak kata org melayu "yang tak dpat dikejar2kan, yg dikendong berciciran" ?? fuck me if im not right. so im kinda in mission to stop figuring out/fixing things that just not meant to be. just fucking enjoy ur life, i mean this moment.

ok fine lah i want to give u example. like look at ur calendar right now, and tell me what date is today. not "im your date cause im ur jodoh" kinda pick up line please. ok its 18/7/2017 or whatever date u are when u reading this post. idk man, this year gone so fast. the other day i look up at my calendar and its only like march. and now its freaking july and we already celebrated our raya already like what the fish. so with that being said, time goes by pretty fast. whatever things that mess up in ur mind right now are going to be gone. like exams, and stuff. i know some of u guys maybe gone through a terribe thing but, tuhan takkan bebankan hambanya lebih dari kemampuan diri kan? and always have god in ur mind, insha Allah u feels less miserable. and always have a good niat u guys. before u guys wanted to do something bad, just remember is it a good deeds or not. if not, just leave it. you will get over of it.

p/s: i hope i will update this blog more often. babai 😊💗